As of today, I've got five days left at home with my little angel before returning to work.

NOT COOL.

I am so sad! There are some moms I know that want that away time from their LOs and want that everyday normalcy of getting up, going to work, and coming home. Not me!

I know I'm supposed to say that I'm thankful to have my job and blah, blah, blah. Really, I wish my "job" was being a SAHM. Maybe one day... I'd even be thankful to be a part-time SAHM.

To those that GET TO stay home with your little ones, I hope you know how lucky you are that you GET to be with your LOs every day.

I have no doubt that the mom we've hired to watch Cameron will do a great job, but it still makes me so sad that someone else will be cuddling, feeding, bonding, and overall caring for my sweet baby boy. I AM JEALOUS. I'm irrationally afraid that he will forget me and that he'll think this other woman is "mom."

Just thinking about next week makes me cry.

Luckily, my mom is coming to visit (AGAIN! :)) for my first week back and will be staying home with Cameron. That makes me a little bit more confident in my first week back. Either way, I'm dreading it and cherishing every last minute at home with my little muffin!